Reflecting on 2013. Embracing 2014 – Part 1
As I reflect on this past year, it’s incredible how much has changed. This time last year I was preparing myself for the big move to Queensland, packing, job hunting and completely stressing about the unknown. Today, I sit here and write this from Currambin Beach in the Gold Coast and I am seriously pinching myself that this is life right now.
When I first started this blog I was still trying to find my feet here in Brisbane and now I can wholeheartedly say that it feels like home. Jimmy and I have just moved into our new place, so I figured it was quite fitting to reflect on 2013 thus far. This year has been filled with moments of loneliness, questioning, searching and exploring, but if I hadn’t experienced these things, I don’t think I would have been able to feel the clarity that I do now. It sounds cliché, but I feel I am on the right path. I can accept that where I am right now is exactly where I’m supposed to be and I’m so excited for all that lies ahead.
It’s been a year of peeling back the layers – to find what it is that ignites me, but also letting go of old beliefs, relationships that no longer serve me, and making space for the things that bring me pure joy. It’s about finally listening to the quiet whisper that has been there all along, and allowing it to become the loud voice that I simply cannot ignore.
This year I have struggled with the idea of success. Before I moved to Queensland, my idea of success was to finish my Masters of Social Work, start working in the field and earn a respectable living helping people. Yet, the minute I got here I soon realised that it wasn’t something that I wanted. I had been so caught up in caring what other people thought of me, that it took a physical move to realise I had been denying myself of authenticity. Thoughts swirled through my head: “I’ve spent all this time at uni and haven’t used any of it”, “What if I don’t earn the money that I envisioned” and “I’ve started something and haven’t finished – what if people think I’ve failed”. I chose to believe those thoughts, but now I realise they are far from the truth.
It dawned on me that nobody REALLY cares what I do, not my parents, not my boyfriend and especially those that matter. I had put myself through perceived external and internal pressures until it hit me that I can do whatever the hell I want. It has felt so liberating and perhaps a little scary too. To put it simply, it has allowed me to let go of a lot of shit – You know, the stuff that you make up in your head that is holding you back.
So 2013, I say thank-you for all that you’ve taught me and bring on 2014 with an open heart to only do the things that I know will serve me. It’s about making new goals of what success looks like to me. No more fluffing around, doing things that I think I ‘should’ be doing. Now I can say that success is leading a life that you love – and being brave enough to say no when things aren’t sitting quite right. Each and every one of us has an idea of what success looks like, so spend some time assessing what that means to you. There is nothing to prove, nothing to gain but acceptance from yourself.
Tell me – what has 2013 revealed for you? How do you define success? Keep your eyes peeled for Part 2 on goal setting for 2014.